I went out to see Holly tonight. ....Walking in that house without Vinny there is weird. Actually its fucking bullshit!! How come low rent cock suckers are allowed to live on this planet, hurt others, steal , shoot, rape and all kinds of shit...but here is Vinny. The greatest fcuking guy on the planet, would give you the shirt off his back...yet he is taken from us?? Its fucked up!! No fucking words can describe what he has done for so many. It does not make any sense. Why the fuck was his number up?
I felt bad because I couldnt control my emotions as I saw Holly. I wept like a fucking baby as I hugged her. I relized all the fucking prayers in the world wont bring him back and there is nothing anyone could do. WHY? Can anyone answer that? Why the fuck was Vinny taken from us now? Why not later, like 50 years from now?
Just fucking yesterday we were talking about driving the Stangs up to M-town and then upto Dayton. "Show dem bitches how we roll!!" I believe thats what he said. We joked about stupid shit and just hung out watching the snow fall. Little did I know that would be the last time I talked to him.
I am happy that I did get one last chance to talk with my bud, but God Dammnit!! It wasnt his time!!!
Its not fucking fair.
I can only imagine what Holly and Amanda are going threw. Hell, Im just a friend and Im fucked up.
Whats fucking bad, its going to get worse before it gets better. and when i think its better, Ill remember my bud aint here anymore.
Sorry to rant on....I just miss my friend